I have a confession to make.
I was at Group Ride this morning and I was totally attuned to every word the instructor (one of my faves – Heather!) uttered, every move she made, every cue she offered. I tried to picture myself up there and two things came to mind:
“Wow, teaching Group Ride would be soooo much less technical than Group Kick!”
And, “can I really do this?” was the second thought.
That’s not the thought I wanted to hear in my mind’s eye. I was sharing this tidbit with one of my fab friends this morning who gave me some great advice. She reminded me that if I set my mind to something, I will not fail. She also reminded me that failure is ok and not the end of the world.
Of course I love her dearly for those words of wisdom, BUT, I don’t want to fail. I really don’t. I have always wanted to put my fitness obsession to good use and this is my opportunity to make it or break it.
Plus, now I”m all paranoid that all my flapping about it here and with friends/family is going to jinx me. Everyone is so excited to see me and my sister teach this class, but what if it doesn’t work out that way for one reason or another? Will you still love me?? (I know, I know, of course you will!)
So anyway, that’s where my head is at today. I am trying so hard to ignore the self-doubt and focus on being confident in my abilities and the fact that this is supposed to be a FUN challenge too.
I’m just having a moment, it’ll pass, I just needed to get it out of my system. Thank god for this blog! Carry on. 😉