As you’ve probably guessed by now, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. And reflecting. And thinking, re-thinking, and overthinking some more. I’ve definitely not been very patient, as witnessed by my last post on TUI, but I am learning a lot in all of this reflecting time I’ve been doing.
I’ve got to give some credit to my sister who, in the past year since she’s gone through a divorce (and come out WAY on top of the world, which I am totally floored and inspired by, I might add), has really started to think differently, even calling this year the year of “why not.” I’ve taken that experience, watching her, being part of all of these changes she’s been making, and I’ve also been trying to throw caution to the wind a little bit more, taking that “why not” mantra with me a little bit, too. It’s actually kind of exciting to think about the possibilities of what might be/could be/should be if I really did think differently more often. Rather than stick with the status quo, “why not” do something I’d not normally do? Even something as simple as “why not” try to get into pilates or another core/flexibility-inducing workout (like Core Fusion which I’ve GOT to get back to), getting away from my thinking that a workout must include either cardio or weights, otherwise it doesn’t “count” as a true workout.
This all probably sounds very mysterious and shady. I’m not trying to be, just can’t share every minute detail about my life on this blog, for obvious reasons. 😉 Part of my thinking/re-thinking/overthinking has obviously had to do with Kick and my continued struggles (that’s a strong word to describe it, it’s not quite that dire!) with cuing, letting go and being a “better” me during classes. I’ve definitely been thinking differently about how I approach the class and how to get outside of myself, shooing away shy mini-me away and embodying Kick as best as I can.
Another part of my observations this past weekend especially has to do with feeling a bit at a crossroads, wondering what’s “next” around the bend for me and my hubby. Sometimes I think that this could be our year to really shake it up, start ticking things off of our combined bucket list (more on this in a sec) and just embracing life and all that it can and should be. That’s not to say that I don’t love my life as it is now, because that’s not true. I LOVE my life – I have an amazing group of close friends; two incredible sisters; an unbelievably supportive, fun, loving, awesome husband; a house that’s truly a home with tons of memories; family that lives close by who I love to spend time with (though, definitely don’t spend nearly enough time with lately, thank you Kick); and I’m healthy and probably the fittest and most energized I’ve ever felt in my life.
So, it’s kind of funny to be wondering what’s next when I am so happy with nearly every part of my life. I think it partly has to do with turning the big 3-0 this past fall and finally feeling content being “me” which has been so empowering. And part of it has to with a recent conversation Scott and I had during a “date night-in” last weekend. Scott asked me what were the top five things on my “bucket list” which got me thinking. What IS on my bucket list? What’s on Scott’s bucket list? How do they compare? Funny enough, we have similar items on our list, including…
- Living in the city, any city, at least once in our lives (Boston, SF, Atlanta, etc.)
- Running a half marathon (this will be ticked off the list soon enough, eek!)
- Running a full marathon (Scott’s add – in Hawaii by the time he turns 35)
- Going to Hawaii (Scott’s point – look, we can totally knock out two bucket list items in one!)
- Taking a cruise (I’m sorta scared of boats, though I’ve been corrected more than once recently, a cruise is not on a boat but a ship)
- Starting our own business – preferably a pizza shop in Healdsburg Square (Sonoma County, Cali – ha, this one’s a stretch!)
So, as you can see, some of our bucket list items are very doable and are already in the works for this year, and some of these are a bit of a stretch goal but hell, you never know right?
In addition to knocking out the “running a half marathon” bucket list item, we may also take a cruise this year – and soon. Still mulling this one over, budget-wise, though we got a really good price quote yesterday which is making me lean towards “yes” on this one – and, not gonna lie, I’m kind of excited to throw a bathing suit on again (scary to actually put this one down in writing, I’d never say this in the past) after all the hard work I’ve been putting in lately!
So anyway, this is kind of a rambly post for Sunday so forgive me – this is me putting all those thoughts that have been running around in my brain down on paper so I can start making sense of it all.
But now that I’ve gotten my thinking off of my chest, what’s on your mind, lately? What’s on your bucket list??