Back to basics

Ok, I think I’ve figured out what’s been getting to me, of late. I need to get back to basics. In all aspects of my life. (and bear with me here, parts of this blog are similar to my thoughts in the past two weeks – I am finding that “blogging it out” is the only way to get my thoughts straight sometimes…)

For instance – I’ve let Kick spin out of control a bit and it’s become more a root of frustration and stress than what it should be: a passion fulfilled. I’ve mentioned this before and I’m mentioning it again as I started to fall back into the “Kick is so frustrating because…” mantra.

My workouts, as a result, have been less invigorating and fulfilling (aside from my amaaaaaazing run on Saturday) which is just sad, really. I LOVE to workout. You all know this. I know this. It’s what I love. It’s the one thing I do just for me, yet here I am muddying the waters by making it a stressful thing (um hello HR monitor freak-out the other day??).

Aside from working out, I need to get back to basics at work and at home. I find myself so wound up at work that I end up being entirely ineffective and uninspired. I’m such a Type-A-er but lately I’ve found I’m not necessarily doing my best work and I think its due to stress and making everything bigger than it needs to be.

At home? I’m so scheduled and regimented. Which works in many, many ways, but in other ways I just need to relax, breathe and let go of routine more often. This is one area I think I’ve done a better job of getting back to basics, especially now that Scott has been around more often. It’ll be far easier for me to break habit for “fun” things like a random picnic on a Saturday afternoon vs. whizzing through my afternoon list of chores, errands and cleaning. Life is too short to zig and never zag.

In doing this little audit of my life, of late, its made me realize that one of the bigger sources of anxiety, stress and frustration has, sadly, been workout and body image related. I admittedly think I may have swung too far in terms of my commitment to working out everyday (sometimes twice a day) and have gotten so focused on the “wow” factor of skipping a rest day for weeks at a time or seeing just how many calories I can burn in one workout or one day or one week, thanks to the Workout Manager I’m obsessed with.

I’m saying all this not because I think I have a problem – because I don’t think that I do. I am saying this mostly as a reminder to myself that sometimes simple is better. As Heather said the other day, its ok to “lighten up” and stop trying so hard to be perfect all the time. It’s definitely something that does not come easily to me – I like to be great at everything and I like to be great at it immediately (this is really why Kick has been so frustrating for me – I haven’t been great at it immediately which just doesn’t sit well with me).

I don’t have the answer or some big resolution to lay out here in terms of how I’m going to get back to basics. But, one thing I do promise is this – I will get back to loving my workouts for what they are – for keeping me strong, fit, healthy, happy and energized and NOT for how many calories I burned, or how many workouts I fit into a day or a week, It’ll come, with time, and patience (my patience pants are hiding in the back of my closet, clearly).

Wow, I am SO rambly today, and I apologize in advance for that. I sort of just started blogging what I was thinking and very clearly my head is all over the place today. Don’t mind me…;)

12 thoughts on “Back to basics

  1. Oh goodness, I can totally relate to this. Sometimes it’s difficult for me to break out of my perfectionist tendencies. The best way for me to keep in check is to surround myself with people who refuse to let me get lost in my own little rigid world… Andrew will totally call me out on it and even though I might roll my eyes at first, he ALWAYS manages to get me to lighten up about things. That’s why I think it’s so great that you’ll be around Scott more now b/c I have a feeling your relationship is similar to our’s where Scott helps you relax and let go a little bit. Just remember that working out should be fun, don’t take it too seriously (I need to keep this in mind for SURE!). πŸ™‚

    • Em – so funny. As I was reading your blog comment I was thinking “wow, her husband sounds just like mine” and then you said the same exact thing! This is exactly why I need to make my way to Atlanta one of these days πŸ˜‰

  2. Hey girl – I’ve sooo been there with workouts too. I know you don’t want to be OCD with the HR monitor, but you can also use it as a tool to gauge just how much you might be OVERdoing things. I’ve started using mine that way – I try to keep weekly workout time at 7 hours now. It was creeping over 8 and that’s when things went south. Workouts sucked, I was edgy. Heck, I was just pissed to be honest. My HR was always sooo low when I knew it should have been higher based on previous workouts. Over training my dear. And quite possibly b/c you’re so focused on the Kick training. I know you wanted to focus on that and that alone, but maybe you do need to back off just a bit and get back to the “fun” workouts again. Do what makes you happy even if you only burn 100 calories. It was fun and that’s what matters.

    So glad to hear that you’re starting to let go of strict schedules at home. I know that I’ve done really well with my lighten up challenge. It’s made such a difference in how I feel overall. Do I still stress, yes, but I try to be rational and stress over what I could actually change, what’s actually vital.

    Hugs girl!

    • God, you hit the nail on the head. I do need to get back to basics and yes, “focusing” on Kick was good and what I needed to do but now I’m glad to get back to my more “normal” – I LOVED running this weekend, I LOVED doing weights this morning and really honestly can’t wait for those DOMS tomorrow from that leg workout! NOT that I don’t love Kick too, but I need to mix it up, clearly – because THAT is what makes me workout-happy. Ahh, who said “basic” had to be boring?? πŸ˜‰

  3. I definitely agree with Heather, and I’ve started to do that with my HRM, too! Sometimes it still surprises me how many cals you can burn by various workouts, and on those days I know I have to eat more to fuel myself through the day. It’s hard because I’m SUCH a numbers girl – there is just something about numbers, though I hate being like that (hmmm….should have been a financial analyst, I suppose???). But I do remind myself that once workouts start to feel mundane, or once my body starts to feel worn out, I need to take a step back. I’m sure that is harder to do when you’re a perfectionist (um, I’m not LOL), but it’s so important. Like you said, just keep in mind the reasons you love your workouts!

    • I know, right? For someone who has always hated math, why on earth am I so intrigued by certain numbers like calories and stuff?? You’re right, a step back is all it takes sometimes.

  4. ok you need to come vacation at my house for a week! While you are stressing over being too scheduled and organized, I’m stressing over being VERY disorganized, and trying to create some sort of schedule! I sat here and said to myself I wish I had some “Jess” in me, I’m bringing poor J down with me and things are just all a flutter! πŸ™‚

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  6. Lightening up and enjoying life is so important. Glad you are working on it. And I relate to not feeling that passion in your workouts and how it can drive you crazy. Way to go for wanting to get that enjoyment back. The basics of life are always the best parts of it.

  7. Wow, I could have written this post myself, you have summed up how I too have been feeling over the last month or so.

    I love love love my training but I’m finding it difficult to get motivated at times, I think quitting the gym to train at home hasn’t helped me.

    I really like your blog, will follow along πŸ™‚

    Have a good day

    x

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