Soooo I’ve finally done it.
I’ve just committed to my second half marathon.
It’s on August 14 – the Cape Ann YuKanRun Half Marathon. <–aptly named, I must say!
I’ll be running it in my hometown of Gloucester, MA
With my husband, my sister and her boyfriend M (hopefully – someone please tell her that yes, she CAN do this again, please??), and hopefully my sister-in-law, too.
Currently, I’m a bundle of mixed emotions – joy, excitement, pride, anxiety.
…but I’m hoping that last one subsides a bit.
This time around (pretty similar to the Wicked Half), I’m not planning to have a hard “time goal” in mind (numbers and I don’t do well) and I’m not going to have a super-duper structured training plan. Again – I love structure in some cases, but in other cases (like this one), I’d rather have flexibility to train when I want/how I want.
What I really want to come out of this?
I want to finish what I started.
Even though I definitely call the half marathon last year a successful one, I can’t help but feel like I didn’t quite finish what I started. Mentally, more than anything else. I sort of let my anxiety towards the last handful of miles of the race mess with my mind. I lost my confidence and sort of crumbled by the end of it. Sure, some of that was dehydration related, but I know that part of it was my confidence waning. Like I said in this post last week, I’ve found that as I get close to success, I start to second guess myself and I pull back.
I’ll give you an example (my sisters will giggle at this one). Picture this scene. I was in fifth grade. At the spelling bee competition. I had just one more word to spell and I’d make it to the semi-finals. In Washington, DC. The sheer thought of getting up on such a big stage and in a city I’d never been to (at that age, I’d only flown one time and it was when I was 6 or 7) scared the life out of me. So – on the last word – jaguar – I misspelled it. On purpose. I came in as runner-up. Got my little trophy and didn’t tell a soul. Not right away anyway. I KNEW how to spell jaguar (with a “uar” at the end, not “ur”) –yet I purposefully threw the competition because I was afraid.
I was afraid to let myself be great.
This has been a constant battle for me – to this day. It happened during Kick training. It’s happened with running. I don’t want to face these battles anymore. I don’t want to pull back this time. I want to 100% embrace this journey, much like I’ve been embracing the Barre n9ne challenge. With enthusiasm and 100% commitment. Without pulling back. Without fear.
So I can truly finish what I started.
So with that said…YuKanRun Half – I’m coming for you.
Yay – good for you!! 🙂
thanks babe. 🙂
I love this sis! And the spelling bee…LOL I still can’t believe you threw a 5th grade spelling bee! Only you 😉 Yes, I know, I will sign up, I promise, I just need to get my outdoor running confidence up again…ya know, when this effing rain subsides. I want to finish what I started too.
I know…I had to throw that example in, it was too perfect not to, ya know?
I will have confidence for the both of us, sis – you can do anything you put your mind to. I have all the faith in the world.
You can do it! Congrats.
Woohoo – I wanna run too 😦
Love the spelling bee story by the way. Maybe you need that on your shirt – Let yourself be great!
You do realize, that’s the Sunday right before the week vaca I mentioned might be a good time for you and Jason to come for our lakeside retreat. You could come in on Saturday and run the race with us on Sunday. Just a thought. 😉
ooooh!! I DIG IT!!!!
Go you! Go you!
Tim and I are doing the Jackson Half in September!! Virtual train?
YES!! Virtual training – I’m ALL OVER IT!
count me in!!
Do you want me to send you our training schedule? It is the same one we did a few years ago for the Salt Lake City half…17 weeks…
YAYAYAY! Good luck to you!!!
Congrats! committing to training for a big race is the first big step…you’re going to do great
Seriously, I’ve been talking about signing up for another one for months! It was finally time to just DO it. hehe.
I am so excited for you! Also – I love that you for you this is finishing what you started. In a sense, I am doing the same with my upcoming half. Except the last time I tried to run a half marathon, it was 10 years ago. Can you say procrastinator???
It really is. I don’t want to stumble back because I’m afraid to just do it, and to be great. It’s time to shine.
As for you – hey, 10 yrs or not, a half is a huge accomplishment, no matter what!
I’m glad you decided to run this race! I’m running it too!!! It’s my first 1/2 and my goal is to finish it, that’s all, just finish 🙂 let’s hope the weather improves soon and who knows maybe our paths will cross up here on the Northshore 🙂
LOVE IT!!!! You will do great. Start strong, just finish. you got this!!!
And yes, I am SURE our paths will cross soon – they have to, I can’t believe we only live one town apart. Crazy!!
Oops, wrong website address.
Get it girl!!! I live in RI, maybe I can either #1 join you for the run or #2 come and cheer you on!!!!
Glad the running mojo is back:) You will own this race!
yay good for you! you’ll do great!! i feel like i’ve been the same way in the past…kind of self sabotage because i guess we’re afraid of failure…? or greatness? i dont know…hah. but either way, this sounds like a great race…you can definitely kick its’ ass!
Awesome!! I can’t wait to follow you on your training!! You’re going to do GREAT.
Signing up for a race is always such a rush!
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I am so excited that you registered for another race! Yay!
Your spelling bee story made me so sad, but I know what you mean about the mental part of it. I struggle with this on almost every run, but that’s what makes me keep coming back for more – because I know there is room for improvement. With every training cycle I pick one thing to focus on (other than just the running) – maybe you can focus on building mental strength as part of your training for this one?
That’s exactly right…I’m really, REALLY focusing on the mental side of running with this race. Between the mental aspect of Barre N9ne and the mental aspect of running, I’m thinking I can learn a lot from this training cycle.
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