“The universe is change; our life is what our thoughts make it.”

So last night, I had a moment.

One of fear.
Fear of change.
Which produced a bit of a a fight or flight reaction.

I won’t get into all the details here but it relates to this whole food log thing and some feedback I needed to hear from Tanya about my approach to the log. Essentially, she made some recommendations/tweaks and my immediate reaction was “I can’t do this.”

But I can. I know I can. But this is how I always react when the going gets tough. I pull back. I refuse to let myself be great. I fizzle out versus finishing what I started. And I refuse to do this with the Barre N9ne challenge (or the half in August, for that matter).

So I turned to twitter for some quick advice:

JessFit654

 Having a fear of change (change being good) vs embrace the change moment. Quick, someone tell me to embrace, embrace!

JessFit654
LOVE!! Thank you!! RT @IrieFitGirl: @JessFit654 Every change leads you on to something better than before. Truly 🙂

So my new twitter friend @IrieFitGirl sent to me two great pieces of advice – one was her own as you can see in her tweet above, and one was this quote:

“The universe is change; our life is what our thoughts make it.” –Marcus Aurelius

It was exactly what I needed to hear. Between what my sis shared with me over skype and BBIM right before our Barre N9ne class last night, and this twitter advice (thank you!!), I have a new perspective today.

I didn’t sign up for this challenge to see ‘minimal’ results. My entire life (it seems), I’ve worked my butt off with workouts galore and yet I never quite feel like that has translated into major results – or a transformation, if you will. Good results, yes, but great ones? I’m not so sure. And before you all worry that I’m being too hard on myself, I promise you I am not. I know that I am fit and strong and healthy. I just know, deep down, that I can be even more fit and strong and healthy if I let go of this fear of change.

I’ve got to learn to be fearless. To own each challenge I commit to. This is my time. To finish what I started.

<Editor’s Note: yes, I realize that this was a pep talk  style blog post, so thank you for indulging me today, sometimes it needs to be done.>