How to banish self-doubt — in 3 easy steps:
- Put on your favorite workout gear
- Grab your water bottle
- Get to your favorite gym/studio/home gym ASAP
Monday night I was driving home from work, feeling a little – shall we say – puffy, for lack of a better word. I went home, grabbed my workout gear for barre n9ne and ate a quick dinner before the 7:15 barre method class (one of my favorites). I happened to have a new Lululemon top (after stalking the “we made too much section” last week like a total creeper) to test drive (note: this would be step 1, see above) so I promptly put the new top on and off I went (step 2).
All the while? I had these awful, totally illogical and very negative thoughts swirling around in my brain. Something along the lines of this:
….”Does this outfit look ok? I need a second opinion…”
…“Hmm. My tummy feels puffy, bah.”
…”Maybe I didn’t need that extra glass of wine on Sunday. Did I overdo it?? (even though I know I didn’t, logically, but in this self-doubt moment, all bets were off)
…”I hate this.Why am I doubting myself???
Step 3: I entered the studio, chatted with a few of the girls before class (who I must say, freakin’ best group of women you’ll ever meet…all so sweet and supportive and AWESOME), and next thing you know it’s time for the 7:15 class to start.
Almost literally before my eyes, as I watched myself in the mirror while we warmed up…and suddenly that “puffiness” I sensed earlier was nowhere to be found. My discomfort in my own skin – gone. Instead, I felt strong, confident, and sure of myself – and I pushed it hard during class. I was in the moment, trusting my body to show me what I was refusing to see beforehand.
This was such a breakthrough for me. I was allowing my body to prove to ME that I do not need to doubt. I do not need to question. I do not need to pick myself apart. I simply need to trust myself.
Kinda like that 5 miler on Thanksgiving showed me that I am more capable than I tend to let myself to believe? This is another instance of that trust issue I’ve been battling lately.
And it’s about time:
…to (fully) trust myself.
…to stop doubting.
…to just be me.
(in just 3 easy steps…)