Mindful (not mindless), intentional (not aimless)

Mindful (not mindless).

Intentional (not aimless).

Just think about the meaning –the weight — behind those words: Mindful. Intentional.

Simple concepts really — a mindful approach, one that requires intention or aim.
…but in practice? Not quite as simple.

At least for me. It’s something I’ve been working on for over a year now (since the barre n9ne challenge started last May…more on this milestone tomorrow…) — and quite honestly? I think it’s always going to be a work-in-progress for me, but a work-in-progress means I’m always moving forward, always working to be better, more mindful, more intentional, right?

Mindful (not mindless) as it relates to healthy eating. Learning to push down my OATT-ing ways and trusting my body to alert me to true hunger. To remind me when it’s not hungry, but perhaps thirsty, or bored, or itching to mindlessly eat…out of old habits attempting to sneak back out.
…Intentional (not aimless).

Mindful (not mindless) workouts. Choosing true focus at the barre — both when taking class but also when teaching class. Staying in the moment, working hard to motivate (as an instructor), and working hard to lead by example (as a student of the method) — working hard, plain and simple. Running the mile I’m in, the run I’m in…and ultimately, the race I’m in (October 7, I’m coming for you).
…Intentional (not aimless).

Mindful (not mindless) living. Continuing to chase dreams. Constantly living on the edge of discomfort — in my career (both of them!), in my relationship with Scott, in my friendships, and as an auntie. Always looking for that mindful memory or moment. Searing it into my brain. Kind of like the butterfly I saw – not once, but twice – while running this weekend with Scott. I do believe that was my Nonna swinging by to remind me that she’s always watching over us. Her death, exactly three years ago on Sunday, still leaves such a sadness in my heart. I miss her. But I know she’s always lingering nearby — and this reminds me to continue to stay mindful to every single moment in life.
…Intentional (not aimless).

Mindful (not mindless).
Intentional (not aimless).

This has become my mantra for life, one that I’ve been rolling around in my mind for the past few weeks. This weekend, the whole concept was truly solidified for me — 2012 is proving not just to be the year of ‘no limits’ but my year. It may sound selfish to some, but for me, it’s become empowering to recognize 2012 as the year that I found my stride.